i got the courage to ask my doctor about getting a medical marijuana card for anxiety and he said not to pursue it only if i had everyday back pain - well, my back never really feels good, but i dont go through bad enough pain all the time enough to want to try to convince a dr about, but there are medical marijuana doctors i hear that will find a way - but even my friends wont do it because they are like so not worried about getting caught - i also hear it costs about $300, which is cool
thanks to my buddy who gave me the little glass pipe i have been using - honestly i dont think i have the guts to go to a head shop and buy one yet - something funny happened though last month when guys were passing the pot around that i was still considered not a smoker
i have had a bad cough for over a month and it started shortly after i burned my throat kinda bad on a big hit - i thought it aggravated it, and tried it again a few weeks after that when i started feeling better and the same thing happened - i have a very sensitive throat and it seems to be prone to infection if irritated like getting hoarse or something
then, i had a cough last night, like an annoying tickle that would not go away so i smoked a bunch of very light drags taking in a lot of air
well i felt great! the cough went away - i am perplexed and not sure if pot has much effect positive or negative
i do feel that i need to be careful not to take in a lot of strong smoke though
i tried filling a tiny amount in my pipe to see if i could smoke every bit of it - took me a few weeks and it gets a bit stinky sitting in a drawer instead of putting in fresh bud every time - i found i could smoke it until it was just ash - i have more coming to me though, but i am being stingy with what i have though - gosh, a little sure goes a long way, at least for me!
my new cat does not like catnip and does not react to the smell of it
she does though, seem to look puzzled and surprised when i exhale after taking in some smoke, it is so funny...
i am also involved in a writing project where i am remembering stories of some brutal religious abuse i suffered in the past
i have found that smoking just enough to get me happy and not too much so i dont get spacy, really helps
i realized that it can numb painful emotions and it has really come in handy 2 or 3 times while writing
i also decided not to smoke early in the day because i am concerned about getting intense fatigue and depression later on in the day
i do find that i can wake up feeling really good the next morning if i take some about 3-4 hours before bedtime - i get really wound up (like tonight in fact, its after midnight) late at night and take things for sleep most nights - i dont have to really do this if i smoke in the evening
i have a weird theory about why hippies that are really stoned flop their heads around, maybe ill share about that some day...
