spring 2012 - leftovers!

spring 2012 was pretty good to me
i was no longer in a band, and felt pressure to get high with the other players and did not have the strength to not get so into that
i really want to smoke to relieve anxiety and back pain
i have found that a tiny ball i roll and put into a pipe the size of the tip of a sharpee pen will last me two or three days and i will keep it for about a week until it turns completely  into ash

this may be bad because it tastes so stale after a day, but its economical
i also take in even more air with the smoke because its a vented pipe
but the other night, while dealing with severe restlessness i placed a larger amount and took in a lot of smoke
just one or two hits like that and i started feeling high, just a bit too much but it helped me cope i admit
other than that, spring was a pattern of smoking about every week, 1-5 times with the exception of a few weeks out of state
i think the strong hit three days ago has given me a deep sore throat and some coughing issues - i feel like i got burned and its really bothering me
i often have sore throats anyway and this week i am really sensitive to stuff in the air but it feels like its healing though...

i feel like my experiment is officially over, yet there are still some things i want to get clear about before i feel like this is to be a regular part of my life

one of my closest friends who is in drug and alcohol recovery told me of a real pot user that he was thinking of dating said that this user was mean and harsh on grass? i don't know... i asked him if he was sure that there was no other drugs involved but did not want to talk about it more for fear of revealing my status because that would really mess up his recovery

i also am thinking of dating a guy who lives out of town that is an avid medical marijuana user, its nice to have this in common and he seems respectful of how little i use

i need to see my chiropractor this summer again because in order to get a medical card, it looks like i need a letter from this dr and the pain needs to be chronic which it was not too bad last winter but is not daily